Tuesday, January 31, 2012

The Test

Well again the computer system is not letting me post pics. for this post.I've already lost one post, so am starting over . The pics that were selected were dramatic.Anyway. tomorrow when I get my $$$ paying the rent will be the first thing I do, then wash clothes, this isn't important stuff. Am I going to HIGH? That is the question. It will be in the evening before the dealers will come around to collect their $$$ and to sell their wares.I pray that I  don't listen to the voice that wants to get HIGH, but it will be Thursday before I post again.At that I have an appointment at the VA for group, so may not post until Friday. I won't be beat like a SLAVE( using) and laughing at GOD ,WHO has protected so far in this struggle.What I need is a fast getaway from the builoding,, that's not really the answer. They will keep coming back until they're paid. Just DON'T USE! That's the answer.Well I'm ending this session with a LOVE, M

Monday, January 30, 2012

This is the third time today I've attempted to post this message. So I'll keep this one short. Ive not used in 12 days now Praise GOD Praise GOD
Someone I thought I had lost contact with was found through Face book. He was a counselor of mine at my first treatment for DRUGS & Alcohol, here in Jackson. He became a friend and mentor. He inspired me into becoming a counselor myself
Not using hasn't been that hard since I OWE out so much $$$$$. Eating good and this writing helps also. Someone wrote to me Facebook spot that she has been reading GOD CALLING for about 8 yrs. and how comforting it is to her. Hope some of you will also read it Must stop now running out of time

January 30 - The Soul At War

"I will never give you a load greater than you can bear."
No evil can befall you, if I am with you. "Ill that He blesses is our good." Every time of being laid aside is a time of retreat into the quiet place with Me. Never fear but in that place you shall find restoration and power and joy and healing.
Plan both of your retreat days now and then - days when you live apart with Me, and arise rested and refreshed - physically, mentally, and spiritually, to carry on the work I have given to you. I will never give you a load greater than you can bear.
Love, Joy, Peace, welcome these. Let no personal feelings, no thoughts of self banish these. Singly, they are miracle-producing in a life, but together, they can command all that is needed on the physical, mental, and spiritual planes.
It is in these wonder-realm attributes all success lies. You have to see your inner lives are all they should be, and then the work is accomplished. Not in rushing and striving on the material plane, but on the battlefield of the Soul are these things won.
"There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God
 is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above
that ye are able."
- 1 Corinthians 10:13

Sunday, January 29, 2012

January 29 - I Clear the Path

"Never fear, whatever may happen. You are both being led."
"Wait on the Lord." - Psalm 27:14
I am thy shield. Have no fear. You must know that "All is well." I will never let anyone do to you both, other than My Will for you.
I can see the future. I can read men's hearts. I know better than you what you need. Trust me absolutely. You are not at the mercy of Fate, or buffeted about by others. You are being led in a very definite way, and others, who do not serve your purpose, are being moved out of your Path by Me.
Never fear, whatever may happen. You are both being led. Do not try to plan. I have planned. You are the builder, not the Architect.
Go very quietly, very gently. All is for the very best for you.
Trust me for all. Your very extremity will ensure My activity for you. And having your foundation on the Rock - Christ, Faith in Him, and "being rooted and grounded in Him," and having belief in My Divinity as your Corner Stone, it is yours to build, knowing all is well.
Literally, you have to depend on Me for everything - everything. It was out of the depths that David cried unto Me, and I heard his voice. All is well.
"The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord." - Psalm 37:23

Saturday, January 28, 2012

January 28 - Low Ambitions

"There is not one want of the soul that I do not supply for the asking, and to you, too, I long to be all."
Fear not. Do not fear to be busy. You are the servant of all. "He that would be the greatest among you, let him be the servant of all."
Service is the word of My disciples. I served indeed, the humblest, the lowliest. I was at their command. My highest powers were at their service.
Be used. Be used by all, by the lowest, the smallest. How best you can serve? Let that be your daily seeking, not how best can you be served.
Look around you. Do the aims and ambitions that man strives for bring peace, or the world's awards bring heart-rest and happiness? No! indeed, man is at war with man. Those whom the world has most rewarded, with name, fame, honour, wealth, are weary and disappointed.
And yet, to the listening ear, above the jangle of the world's discordant cries, there echoes down the 1900 years My message, "Come unto Me, all ye that are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest."
And the weary and disappointed who listen and turn to Me find indeed that rest. Joy of the Weary I am, Music to the Heart I am, Health to the Sick, Wealth to the Poor, Food to the Hungry, Home to the Wanderer, Rapture to the Jaded, Love to the Lonely.
There is not one want of the soul that I do not supply for the asking, and to you too, I long to be all.
"Therefore will the Lord wait, that he may be gracious unto you." - Isaiah 30:18

Friday, January 27, 2012

Day 9

Well boys and girls, went to the VA and asked doc about treatment. He had me see my Case Manager. Together we worked out a plan. Now what will happen is that I'll come to the VA once a wk. until a spot opens for me, she said it might take 3-6 wks.I no longer feel like a drowning man
It felt kinda good letting someone, who can really help, what is going on and reinforce what I already know. Only I can stop using. There is no magic pill or anything else that will keep me from using. I have to my mind made up about quitting.  Going to meetings and being around others who don't use will help and most certainly PRAYING will also., but if I'm not ready to quit then I'll be wasting every ones time.
I don't know where I'll in up but where ever it is it'll be a better place than I'm in now.I believe that GOD as something SPECIAL for me , just don't know what it may be.Everyday CAN BE filled with surprises and joy. I know this because that what it was like before. Not that I want my old non-using  life back. There is no such thing in going back, but I can have a fulfilling life. Maybe my daughter and I can get closer or at least see each other soon. Speaking of her I'm going to call her tonight and let her know whats been going on with me.She knows but to tell her is something I must do because she deserves to hear the truth from me about why I haven't been able to be there for her. 
Everyday won't be as above but that doesn't mean it's a wasted day.So until then.See YA

January 27 - Height of the Storm

It is a part of My method to wait till the storm is at its full violence.
"Lord, to whom shall we go? thou hast the words of eternal life." - John 6:68                                   I am with you both. Go forward unafraid. Health and strength, peace and happiness and joy - they are all My gifts. Yours for the asking. In the spiritual (as in the material) world there is no empty space, and as self and fears and worries depart out of your lives, it follows that the things of the Spirit, that you crave so, rush in to take their places. All things are yours, and ye are Christ's, and Christ is God's. What a wonderful cycle, because ye are God's.
Be not afraid. Fear not. It is to the drowning man the Rescuer comes. To the brave swimmer who can fare well alone He comes not. And no rush of Joy can be like that of a man towards his Rescuer.
It is a part of My method to wait till the storm is at its full violence. So did I with My disciples on the Lake. I could have bidden the first angry wave be calm, the first gust of wind be still, but what a lesson unlearned? What a sense of tender nearness of refuge and safety would have been lost.
Remember this - My disciples thought that in sleep I had forgotten them. Remember how mistaken they were. Gain strength and confidence and joyful dependence and anticipation from that.
Never fear. Joy is yours, and the radiant joy of the rescued shall be yours.
"Shew me thy ways, O Lord; teach me thy paths." - Psalm 25:4

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Day 8

It's RUBBER MEETS the ROAD  time and I'm mentally making excuses why I can't go to treatment. I don't know how I'm going to be able to pay my rent. I physically have to go to the credit Union to draw my $$$ out.If I'm late paying the rent they add 10% to your account, which in my case would be $42.50 since I've been late before they hard playing Hard Ball with me.There is one person I might trust with my ATM card
I was going to ask him if he'd check my mail while I was gone anyway.
Can't back out now, I wasn't a LIFE and not the one  I have now, which is NO LIFE AT ALL.Lord help me be honest with my doctor tomorrow.

January 26 - Keep Calm

Keep your Spirit-Life calm and unruffled."
Keep your Spirit-Life calm and unruffled. Nothing else matters. Leave all to Me. This is your great task, to get calm in My Presence, not to let one ruffled feeling stay for one moment. Years of blessing may be checked in one moment by that.
No matter who frets you or what, yours is the task to stop all else until absolute calm comes. Any block means My Power diverted into other channels.
Pour forth - pour forth - pour forth - I cannot bless a life that does not act as a channel. My Spirit brooks no stagnation, not even in rest. Its Power must flow on. Pass on everything, every blessing. Abide in Me.
See how many you can bless each day. Dwell much in My Presence.
"Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life." - Proverbs 4:23

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

January 25 The Way of Happiness

"Complete surrender of every moment to God is the foundation of happiness."
Complete surrender of every moment to God is the foundation of happiness, the superstructure is the joy of Communion with Him. And that is, for each, the place, the mansion, I went to prepare for you.
My followers have misunderstood that, and looked too often upon that promise as referring only to an After-Life, and too often - far too often - upon this life as a something to be struggled through in order to get the reward and the joy of the next.
Seek to carry out all I say, and such understanding, insight, vision, and joy will be yours as shall pass indeed all understanding.The plans of God are very wonderful - beyond your highest hopes.
Cling to thoughts of protection, safety, guidance.
"I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present
 your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which
 is your reasonable service." - Romans 12:1

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Day 6

Missed posting yesterday, the system here (library) keep going down and I lost what I was writing. Well as it says it's been 6 days and I'm eating everything in the house.Can't sleep without taking my sleeping pills ( mirazapine). Also I take BUSPIRONE--anxiety,plus GABAPENTIN--neuropathic pain.Dope boy came by the other day and I told him NO! Good for me , right? I e-mailed several people I use to workk with and caslled friends about what's going on. Still have not talked to anyone face to face though.That's the test , can I tell another what's going on and that I need help? I could keep going on and on about bullshit but the question keeps coming back to WHAT AM I GIONG TO DO? Well we'll see come Friday when I see my "srink"
Even though this is a pic of the SUNSET. It is peaceful and a reminder that the day is drawing to a close. Still reading in the eveings. Started a new story titled Air Battle Force by Dale Brown, he also wrote the Dreamland series plus many other war type books.What? a pic of peaceful sunset and then talk of war? Yea well that's how I thinkl and write. That make me fucked-up or what?I write what's on my mind and not try and be so PC, ok?I'm scared about the future, Will I breakdown when I get my check and if I do will I still go to treatment when the time comes? Only GOD knows. I pray that I'll stay the course. I feel I should be saying more, but anything else would be just vain words and mean nothing, so why am I still writing? Until tomorrow, Good night

Playoffs and other stuff

 I was here yesterday and using 4 different computers, I had 4 "crashes". So because I want to let all know what's  been happening with MY PICKS. You know I lost both games. The 49ers was the hardest to watch. The same player made 2 mistakes that were GAME CHANGERS. I know he feels terrible, but as a fan #%&**&!!!!. The Ravens missed tying field goal.Now on to the SUPERBOWL, I don't really care for either team.Still I'm going to rah rah rah for the Giants. They have taken my $$$ in several SUPERBOWL'S and I'D LIKE A CHANCE TO GET SOME OF IT BACK.I've never liked New England, no particular reason why ,just don't.Anyway that;s my pick NY by 7.

January 24 Your Great Reward

"I am your God. Your Great Reward. Yours to look up and say, 'All is Well.'"
You pray for Faith, and you are told to do so. But I make provision in the House of My Abiding for those who turn towards Me and yet have weak knees and hearts that faint. Be not afraid. I am your God. Your Great Reward. Yours to look up and say, "All is well."
I am your Guide. Do not want to see the road ahead. Go just one step at a time. I rarely grant the long vista to My disciples, especially in personal affairs, for one step at a time is the best way to cultivate Faith.
You are in uncharted waters. But the Lord of all Seas is with you, the Controller of all Storms is with you. Sing with Joy. You follow the Lord of Limitations, as well as the God in whose service is perfect freedom.
He, the God of the Universe, confined Himself within the narrow limits of a Baby-form and, in growing Boyhood, and young Manhood, submitted to your human limitations, and you have to learn that your vision and power, boundless as far as spiritual things are concerned, must in temporal affairs submit to limitations, too.
But I am with you. It was when the disciples gave up effort after a night of fruitless fishing, that I came, and the nets broke with the overabundance of supply.
"He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth
 much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing." -
John 15:5

Monday, January 23, 2012

January 23 - How Power Comes

Learn to shut yourself away in My Presence.
Lord, Thou art our Refuge. Our God, in Thee do we trust. O Master, come and talk with us.
All power is given unto Me. It is Mine to give, Mine to withhold, but even I have to acknowledge that I cannot withhold it from the soul that dwells near Me, because it is then not a gift, but passes insensibly from Me to My disciples.
It is breathed in by the soul who lives in My Presence.
Learn to shut yourself away in My Presence - and then, without speaking, you have those things you desire of Me, Strength - Power - Joy - Riches.
"He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High
shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty."
- Psalm 91:1

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Day 4

The great news is that I've NOT used in 4 days. Only those who are in recovery or have a a loved one who is or lost can understand how tough it can be in the first few days or weeks. Yes I still think about and at times want to use, GOD IS keeping me SAFE from harm. At this time in my life I can't say I'll NEVER use again, ( I said that for 8 yrs. then used again). I want to get back to the house so I can watch the Playoffs.So I" ll do my best to post again tomorrow.Keep me in your prayers and I'll keep you in mine.

Bal.vs NE and 49' vs NY

 I don't have much time to post because it's almost kickoff time. I made my picks yesterday and the reason I Choose the RAVENS over the Patriot's is that I didn't like them nor Tom Brady when they won the SUPERBOWL a few years back.Waaaay back when I lived in San Francisco and the RAIDERS and the 49'S WON me lots of $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$. I won't even talk about how NY has been LOSING me tons of $$$$$$$$$$$$$ since the 80's. Starting with a SUPERBOWL WIN around 83/84, somewhere in that time.I would put up pics but the system seems to be working against me. As you my know I'm using the library's computer.

January 22 - Gray Days

You must say 'Thank You' on the grayest days.
Be not afraid. I am your God, your Deliverer. From all evil, I will deliver you. Trust Me. Fear not.
Never forget your "Thank you." Do you not see it is a lesson? You MUST say "Thank You" on the grayest days. You MUST do it. All cannot be light unless you do. There is gray-day practice. It is absolutely necessary.
My death upon the Cross was not only necessary to save a world, it was necessary if only to train My disciples. It was all a part of their training: My entering Jerusalem in triumph; My washing the disciples' feet; My sorrow-time in Gethsemane; My being despised, judged, crucified, buried. Every step was necessary to their development - and so with you.
If a gray day is not one of thankfulness, the lesson has to be repeated until it is. Not to everyone is it so. But only to those who ask to serve Me well, and to do much for Me. A great work requires a great and careful training.
"Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy
God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold
thee with the right hand of my righteousness."
- Isaiah 41:10

Saturday, January 21, 2012


I'm taking the 49's over NY this wkend. and the RAVENS over Ne

Day Three

Well gang I didn't get HIGH last night!!!!!For me thats's GREAT. Didn't really want to get HIGH,but do like getting there.I once had 8 yrs., but I know that it all starts with day ONE.The stats. say that some people will go back to using .but if they CAN get back to being SOBER they will stay sober longer each time. Now that doesn't mean that all people "fall off the wagon". There are vast numbers whom NEVER go back to thier drug of choice.This isn't abut them but me.  
This is how I feel most days. Split about which way to go.
Knowing that Drugs in any form (for me that is) is a DEATH sentence. Destroying myself in the process of temporally pleasing self. I'm going to swich topics now becuse I feel goof about myself tody and that's part of why people get HIGH in the first place, Not feeling OK within self. Now one of the other things I like to do   is read. Now most other people like to read, but even as a child I'd read anything I could get my hands on.                 
The last book I read was " Moon Of Thunder" by Don Coldsmith. This is the 7th book in the Spanish Bit Saga. It' set in the 1700's before the American Indian had discovered horses. Now the book I read they had just been introduced to the horse Not really a long book, I guess because it is part of a series. Now I'm reading A PLACE CALLED FREEDOM by Ken Follett whom also wrote" Eye of the  Needle" Other intrest are Playing cads. Living in a SENIORS building we get toghter most nighs and play SPADES sometimes we play Bid Wisk
 Besides cards and reading I do enjoy COOKING,and  like what I cook. Been married twice and there childern in both realtionships. Cooking was part of what we shared. Yes I  was, or rather the type of man who shares in household chores.Well it's taken me more than asn hour to post this, looking for pics I thought would be fun to see.Still there isn't anyone reading this stuff but it's doing me good. By the time I get to treatment I'll be more than ready to TELL IT ALL. Until we meet again

January 21 - A Crowded Day

Be glad all the time.
Believe that I am with you and controlling all. When My Word has gone forth, all are powerless against it.
Be calm. Never fear. You have much to learn. Go on until you can take the most crowded day with a song. "Sing unto the Lord." The finest accompaniment to a Song of Praise to Me is a very crowded day. Let Love be the motif running through all.
Be glad all the time. Rejoice exceedingly. Joy in Me. Rest in Me. Never be afraid. Pray more. Do not get worried. I am thy Helper. "Underneath are the Everlasting Arms." You cannot get below that. Rest in them, as a tired child rests.
"Be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said,
I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee."
- Hebrews 13:5

Friday, January 20, 2012

Happy Thoughts

Well it's been two days and I have not gotten High!!!!!

It's not a record but a goood start. Have not spoken to anyone else about treatment even though I've gone online seeking other addiction sites. Tonight being the start of the week-end there will be phone calls from those wishing to get me to buy something on credit. With all of my next month's money already spent there seems little chance that I'll go deeper into debit. (Did I spell that right)? Tomorrow  when you hear from me it will be to say I DIDN'T GET HIGH !!!!!! There isn't much time left for me to write today, being at the libaray and thier closing time is 6:00 tonight, I PRAY for ALL those and myself who suffer from addictions of any sort.

January 20 - At One With God

To dwell in thought on the material, when once you live in Me - is to call it into being.

One with Me. I and My Father are one. One with the Lord of the whole Universe!
Could human aspiration reach higher? Could man's demands transcend this? One with Me.
If you realize your high privilege, you have only to think and immediately the object of your thought is called into being. Indeed, well may I have said, "Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth."
To dwell in thought on the material, when once you live in Me - is to call it into being. So you must be careful only to think of and desire that which will help, not hinder, your spiritual growth. The same law operates too on the spiritual plane.
Think Love, and Love surrounds you, and all about whom you think. Think thoughts of ill-will and ill surrounds you, and those about whom you think. Think health - health comes. The physical reflects the mental and spiritual.
"For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he." - Proverbs 23:7

Thursday, January 19, 2012

January 19 - Love Anticipates

Lord, I will seek Thee.
The Anticipatory Love of God is a thing mortals seldom realize - Dismiss the thought of a grudging God.
None ever sought Me in vain. I wait, wait with a hungry longing to be called upon; and I, who have already seen your hearts' needs before you cried upon Me, before perhaps you were conscious of those needs yourself, I am already preparing the answer.
It is like a Mother, who is setting aside suitable gifts for her daughter's wedding, before Love even has come into the daughter's life.
The Anticipatory Love of God is a thing mortals seldom realize. Dwell on this thought. Dismiss from your minds the thought of a grudging God, who had to be petitioned with sighs and tears and much speaking before reluctantly He loosed the desired treasures. Man's thoughts of Me need revolutionizing.
Try and see a Mother preparing birthday or Christmas delights for her child - the while her Mother-heart sings: "Will she not love that? How she will love this!" and anticipates the rapture of her child, her own heart full of the tenderest joy. Where did the Mother learn all this preparation - joy? From Me - a faint echo this of My preparation - joy.
Try to see this as plans unfold of My preparing. It means much to Me to be understood, and the understanding of Me will bring great joy to you.
"Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly
above all that we ask or think, according to the
power that worketh in us."
Ephesians 3:20

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

The Angle of DEATH

Well I didn't last the night.It had been almost 2 days since I had gotten HIGH,and it seemed that writing yesterday had helped, but that M-Fer. was playing his DEATH SONG last night and I fell for it again. Now I'm in WAAAY over my $$$$ head.Have an appointment on the 27th with my SHRINK.The above POST says it all. I pray, but won't DO what is necessary  
(that's saying NO,NO,NO).Anyway I won't let the above BLOOD SUCKERS get me  tonight.I talked to my EX last night but didn't tell her or for that fact my daughter what's really going on in my life.I know my daughter knows, because I didn't have money and haven't been able to help her out when she needed me the most. Soon though I'll have to tell her something especially when I go to treatment. Well until later. GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

January 18 - Faith - Works

Pray daily for Faith. It is My Gift.
It is your only requisite for the accomplishment of mighty deeds. Certainly you have to work, you have to pray, but upon Faith alone depends the answer to your prayers - your works.
I give it you in response to your prayer, because it is the necessary weapon for you to possess for the dispersion of evil - the overcoming of all adverse conditions, and the accomplishment of all good in your lives, and then you having Faith, give it back to Me. It is the envelope in which every request to Me should be placed.
And yet "Faith without works is dead." So you need works, too, to feed your Faith in Me. As you seek to do, you feel your helplessness. You then turn to Me. In knowing Me, your faith grows - and that faith is all you need for My Power to work.
"Behold, his soul which is lifted up is not upright in him:
 but the just shall live by his faith." - Habakkuk 2:4

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Courage or lack there of

I started this site because I had been wanting to see if I could and also because in the past this was a place which I could post about things which I felt I couldn't tell others. Well I found out after reading that BULLSHIT about the SIGN (NOT THAT IT ISN'T REAL OR that I'M PISSED ABOUT IT), IT WAS JUST THAT I could see far I'VE GONE DOWN IN MY ADDICTION.I'm seeing my doctor this  month and will ask him about getting my into TREATMENT. My $ FOR NEXT MONTH IS ALREADY SPENT. If I can't be honest in here( where it seems nobody is reading this stuff), how can I be honest when I'm in treatment? I feel like the guy above, WHAT THE #*%^ HAPPENED? There was a time when life seemed good and my daughter and I seemed to be getting closer, doing well at the job,and even started a mens shelter.What I wan't telling anyone was that it all seemed to be overbearing and Iwas scared as HELL about what Iwas doing.I felt that I was a phony.The weight of, it seemed at the time, so many people counting on me to DO THE RIGHT THING!!!!!Well  used that and other things as an excuse to GET HIGH. Right now thats all I want to share, SHIT SOUNDS LIKE I'M IN TREATMENT ALREADY!

January 17 - God's Rush To Give

Love and Trust are the solvents for the worry and cares and frets of a life.
Silence. Be silent before Me. Seek to know, and then to do My will in all things.
Abide in My Love. An atmosphere of loving understanding to all men. This your part to carry out, and then I surround you with a protective screen that keeps all evil from you. It is fashioned by your own attitude of mind, words, and deeds, towards others.
I want to give you all things, good measure, pressed down and running over. Be quick to learn. You know little yet of the Divine Impatience which longs to rush to give. Does one worrying thought enter your mind, one impatient thought? Fight it at once.
Love and Trust are the solvents for the worry and cares and frets of a life. Apply them at once. You are channels and though the channel may not be altogether blocked, fret and impatience and worry corrode, and in time would become beyond your help.
Persevere, oh! persevere. Never lose heart. All is well.
"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto
thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him,
and he shall direct thy paths." - Proverbs 3:5,6

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Home God Calling God At Eventide Classic Books Story of the Book Voice Divine Testimonies

God Calling

by Two Listeners
Edited by A. J. Russell

January 1 - 15

1    2    3    4    5    6    7    8    9    10    11    12    13    14    15

January 1 - Between the Years
Our Lord and our God. We joy in Thee. Without Thy Help we could not face unafraid the year before us.
I stand between the years. The Light of My Presence is flung across the year to come - the radiance of the Sun of Righteousness. Backward, over the past year, is My Shadow thrown, hiding trouble and sorry and disappointment.
Dwell not on the past - only on the present. Only use the past as the trees use My Sunlight to absorb it, to make from it in after days the warming fire-rays. So store only the blessings from Me, the Light of the World. Encourage yourselves by the thought of these.
Bury every fear of the future, of poverty for those dear to you, of suffering, of loss. Bury all thought of unkindness and bitterness, all your dislikes, your resentments, your sense of failure, your disappointment in others and in yourselves, your gloom, your despondency, and let us leave them all, buried, and go forward to a new and risen life.
Remember that you must not see as the world sees.  I hold the year in My Hands - in trust for you. But I shall guide you one day at a time.
Leave the rest with Me. You must not anticipate the gift by fears or thoughts of the days ahead.
And for each day I shall supply the wisdom and the strength.
I am the light of the world; he that followeth me shall not walk
 in darkness, but shall have the light of life.  John 8:12

January 2 - Arm of Love
You are to help to save others. Never let one day pass when you have not reached out an arm of Love to someone outside your home - a note, a letter, a visit, help in some way.
Be full of Joy. Joy saves. Joy cures. Joy in Me. In every ray of sunlight, every smile, every act of kindness, or love, every trifling service - joy.
Each day do something to lift another soul out of the sea of sin, or disease or doubt into which man has fallen.  I still walk today by the lakeside and call My Disciples to follow Me and to become fishers of men.
The helping hand is needed that raises the helpless to courage, to struggle, to faith, to health. Love. Laugh. Love and laughter are the beckoners to faith and courage. Trust on, love on, joy on.
Refuse to be downcast. Refuse to be checked in your upward climb. Love and laugh. I am with you. I bear your burdens. Cast your burden upon Me and I will sustain thee. And then in very lightheartedness you turn and help another with the burden that is pressing too heavily upon him or her.
How many burdens can you lighten this year? How many hearts can you cheer? How many souls can you help?
And in giving you gain:  "Good measure, pressed down, and running over."  I your Lord have said it.
Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine
heart; wait, I say, on the Lord.   Psalm 27:14

January 3 - The Way Wide Open
But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength.  Isaiah 40:31
You must be renewed, remade. Christ, Christ, Christ. Everything must rest on Me. Force is born of rest. Only Love is a conquering force. Be not afraid, I will help you.
Be channels both of you. My Spirit shall flow through and My Spirit shall, in flowing through, sweep away all the bitter past.
Take heart. God loves, God helps, God fights, God wins.  You shall see.  You shall know. The way will open. All My Love has ever planned, all My Love has ever thought, you shall see each day unfold. Only be taught. Just like a child. A child never questions plans. It accepts gladly.
Whosoever shall not receive the kingdom of God as a
little child, he shall not enter therein.  Mark 10:15

January 4 - Do Not Plan
Shew us Thy Way, O Lord, and let us walk in Thy paths. Lead us in Thy Truth and teach us.
All is well.  Wonderful things are happening. Do not limit God at all. He cares and provides.
Uproot self - the channel blocker. Do not plan ahead, the way will unfold step by step. Leave tomorrow's burden. Christ is the Great Burdenbearer. You cannot bear His load and He only expects you to carry a little day-share.
Come unto me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden,
and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28

January 5 - Hoard Nothing
Love Me and do My Will. No evil shall befall you. Take no thought for tomorrow. Rest in My presence brings Peace. God will help you. Desire brings fulfillment. Peace like a quiet flowing river cleanses, sweeps all irritants away.
You shall be taught, continue these prayertimes, even if they seem fruitless. The devil will try by any means to stop them. Heed him not. He will say evil spirits may enter in. Heed him not.
Rest your nerves. Tired nerves are a reflection on, not of, God's Power. Hope all the time.
Do not be afraid of poverty. Let money flow freely. I will let it flow in but you must let it flow out. I never send money to stagnate - only to those who pass it on.  Keep nothing for yourself. Hoard nothing. Only have what you need and use. This is My Law of Discipleship.
Commit thy way unto the Lord, trust also in him;
and he shall bring it to pass.  Psalm 37:5

January 6 - Sharp and Ready                                         Doc's birthday!       
Guide me, O Thou Great Jehovah,
Pilgrim through this foreign land.
I am weak but Thou art mighty,
Guide me with Thy powerful Hand.
You must pray.  The way will open. God cares and His plans unfold. Just love and wait.
Love is the key. No door is too difficult for it to open.
What cause have you to fear? Has He not cared for and protected you? Hope on. Hope gladly. Hope with certainty. Be calm, calm in My Power.
Never neglect these times, pray and read your Bible and train and discipline yourself. That is your work - Mine to use you. But My instruments must be sharp and ready.  Then I use them.
Discipline and perfect yourselves at all costs. Do this for soon every fleeting thought will be answered, every wish gratified, every deed used. It is a fearful Power, a mighty Power. Oh! be careful that you ask nothing amiss - nothing that is not according to My Spirit.
All thoughts harmful must be turned out. See how necessary I have made the purity and goodness of your own lives to you. Soon, you shall ask and at once it will come. Welcome the training. Without it I dare not give you this Power.
Do not worry about other's lives. You must perfect yourselves first in My Strength.
Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth
 not to be ashamed rightly dividing the word of truth.  2 Timothy 2:15

January 7 - The Secret Pearl
Look upon us with Thy favor, O Lord, while we behold "The land that is very far off" and yet so near to the seeing eye and the listening ear.
Wait. Wonders are unfolding. Tremble with awe. No man can stand upon the threshold of Eternity unshaken. I give unto you Eternal Life. A free gift, a wonderful gift - the Life of the Ages.
Silently comes the Kingdom. No man can judge when it enters the heart of man, only in results. Listen quietly. Sometimes you may get no message. Meet thus all the same. You will absorb an atmosphere.
Cultivate silence. "God speaks in silences." A silence, a soft wind. Each can be a message to convey My meaning to the heart, though by no voice, or even word.
Each word or thought of yours can be like a pearl that you drop into the secret place of another heart, and in some hour of need, lo! the recipient finds the treasure and realizes for the first time its value.
Do not be too ready to do, just be. I said, "Be ye therefore perfect" not "do" perfect things. Try and grasp this. Individual efforts avail nothing. It is only the work of the Universal Spirit - My Spirit - that counts.
Dwell in thought on this, more and more, saints have take a lifetime to grasp it.
Be still, and know that I am God.  Psalm 46:10

January 8 - Love Bangs the Door
Life with Me is not immunity from difficulties, but peace in difficulties.  My guidance is often by shut doors. Love bangs as well as opens.
Joy is the result of faithful trusting acceptance of My Will, when It seems not joyous.
St. Paul, my servant, learnt this lesson of the banged doors when he said "our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory."  Expect rebuffs until this is learned - it is the only way.
Joy is the daughter of calm.
They that trust in the Lord shall be as mount Zion,
which cannot be removed, but abideth for ever. Psalm 125:1

January 9 - No Strain
Be calm, no matter what may befall you. Rest in Me. Be patient, and let patience have her perfect work. Never think things overwhelming. How can you be overwhelmed when I am with you?
Do not feel the strain of life.  There is no strain for My children.  Do you not see I am a Master Instrument-maker?  Have I not fashioned each part? Do I not know just what it can bear without a strain? Would I, the maker of so delicate an instrument, ask of it anything that could destroy or strain?
No! The Strain is only when you are serving another master, the world, fame, the good opinion of men - or carrying two days' burden on the one day.
Remember that it must not be.
Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for him. Psalm 37:7

January 10 - Influence
When you come to Me, and I give you that Eternal Life I give it to all who believe in Me, it alters your whole existence, the words you speak, the influences you have.
These are all eternal. They must be.  They spring from the life within you, My Life, Eternal Life, so that they too live forever.  Now you see how vast, how stupendous, is the work of any soul that has Eternal Life. The words, the influence, go on down the ages forever.
You must ponder on these truths I give you.  They are not surface facts, but the secrets of My Kingdom, the hidden pearls of rare price.
Meditate upon them. Work at them in your minds and hearts.
I am come that they might have life, and that
they might have it more abundantly.  John 10:10

January 11 - The Ache of Love
Use My unlimited stores for your needs and those of others.  Seek My wonderful truths and you shall find.
There may come times when you sit in silence, when it seems as if you were left alone. Then, I command you to remember I have spoken to you.
You will have the consciousness of My Presence when you hear no voice. Abide in that Presence. "I am the light of the world," but sometimes in tender pity, I withhold too glaring a light, lest, in its dazzling brightness, you should miss your daily path and work.
Not until Heaven is reached, do souls sit and drink in the ecstasy of God's revelation to His Own. At the moment you are pilgrims and need only your daily marching orders, and strength and guidance for the day.
Oh! Listen to My Voice, eagerly, joyfully. Never crowd it out. I have no rival claimants and if men seek the babble of the world, then I withdraw.
Life has hurt you. Only scarred lives can really save.
You cannot escape the discipline. It is the hallmark of discipleship. My children, trust Me always. Never rebel.
The trust given to Me today, takes away the ache of rejection of My love, that I suffered on earth, and have suffered through the ages. "I died for you, My children, and could ye treat Me so?"
And the sheep follow him; for they know his voice. John 10:4

January 12 - Thanks for Trials
You must say "Thank You" for everything, even seeming trials and worries.
Joy is the whole being's attitude of "Thank You" to Me. Be glad. Rejoice. A father loves to see his children happy.
I am revealing so much to you. Pass it on. Each Truth is a jewel. Some poor spirit-impoverished friend will be glad of it. Drop one here and there.
Seek to find a heart-home for each Truth I have imparted to you. More Truths will flow in.  Use all I give you. Help others, I ache to find a way into each life and heart, for all to cry expectantly, "Even so come Lord Jesus."
In every thing give thanks, for this is the will of God
in Christ Jesus concerning you.  1Thessalonias 5:18

January 13 - Friends Unseen
Never despair, never despond. Be just a channel of helpfulness for others.
Have more sympathy. Feel more tenderness towards others. Your lives shall not be all care. Gold does not stay in the crucible - only until it is refined.  Already I hear the music and the marching of the unseen host, rejoicing at your victory.
No follower of Mine would ever err or fall, if once the veil were withdrawn which prevents him seeing how these slips delight the evil spirits, and the pain and the disappointment of those who long for him to conquer in My Strength, and Name, and the ecstasy of rejoicing when victory is won.
My Strength is the same as that in which I conquered Satan in the Wilderness - depression and sorrow in the Garden, and even Death on Calvary.
Think of that.
Casting all your care upon him, for he careth for you. 1 Peter 5:7

January 14 - Mighty and Marvelous
Glad indeed are the souls with whom I walk. Walking with Me is security. The coming of My Spirit into a life, and the working are imperceptible, but the result is might.
Learn of Me. Kill the self. Every blow to self is used to shape the real, eternal, imperishable you.
Be very candid and rigorous with yourselves.  "Did self prompt that?" and if it did, oust it at all costs.
When I died on the Cross, I died embodying all the human self. Once that was crucified, I could conquer even death.
When I bore your sins in My own body on the Tree I bore the self-human nature of the world. As you too kill self, you gain the overwhelming power I released for a weary world, and you too will be victorious.
It is not life and its difficulties you have to conquer, only the self in you. As I said to My disciples, "I have many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now."  You could not understand them. But as you go on obeying Me and walking with Me, and listening to Me, you will, and then you will see how glorious, how marvelous My revelations are, and My teachings.
I protest by your rejoicing which I have in Christ
Jesus our Lord, I die daily.  1 Corinthians 15:31