I have not talked to anyone about my urges but will talk to my counselor on Monday if I don't before then.I've gained lots of weight and other than wondering if I will drink when I get out of here I feel fine. Found out today the the woman I'll been seeing has FUCKED someone else while I'm here.It's not like we are a couple but she was talking about neither one of us FUCKING anyone else. I was using her weakness, she drinks and makes herself easy to see ALL of her GOODIES! All I wanted was to FUCK with NO COMMITMENTS and I guess I got,uh.
Saturday, March 17, 2012
My roommate is finishing his time here in treatment,He'll leave Monday, he's from Hattiesburg and has been someone who has my stay here easier. I'll still have another roommate and we will be getting another one Either Monday or Tuesday. These are three man rooms. I've pit off posting because the longer I'm here the more I can see I want to use! I think about when I get out having a beer.Not CRACK! One will lead to the other. That and I still can't pay LARRY, don't know what he'll do when I tell him it will be next month before I can give him anything.Back to the using part.I want to have a life, but a beer is something I really want.