Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Didn't get HIGH last night. Dealer called wanting to know if I was going to have his $$$$ come tomorrow? Of course I said YES. I won't though.Don't know what he's going to do about it, scared I am. He won't kill me but may send some of his boys to harm me.My fault I'll get whatever. Ronnie knows who did what to me. This is the type of thing that has me wanting to stop SMOKING.DOPE.The staying up late ,not sleeping and just thinking about the trouble I'm in because of it is just plain FUCKED-UP!I want a LIFE and can't get or have one until I quit SMOKING. and it will still take time before LIFE gets better. I'm know this and am willing to wait.Not much time left for me to post. Most likely won't be posting tomorrow. Friday, maybe.Going to GROUP at the VA tomorrow and after that home to face the consequences of my addiction.