The Test

Well again the computer system is not letting me post pics. for this post.I've already lost one post, so am starting over . The pics that were selected were dramatic.Anyway. tomorrow when I get my $$$ paying the rent will be the first thing I do, then wash clothes, this isn't important stuff. Am I going to HIGH? That is the question. It will be in the evening before the dealers will come around to collect their $$$ and to sell their wares.I pray that I  don't listen to the voice that wants to get HIGH, but it will be Thursday before I post again.At that I have an appointment at the VA for group, so may not post until Friday. I won't be beat like a SLAVE( using) and laughing at GOD ,WHO has protected so far in this struggle.What I need is a fast getaway from the builoding,, that's not really the answer. They will keep coming back until they're paid. Just DON'T USE! That's the answer.Well I'm ending this session with a LOVE, M

This is the third time today I've attempted to post this message. So I'll keep this one short. Ive not used in 12 days now Praise GOD Praise GOD

Someone I thought I had lost contact with was found through Face book. He was a counselor of mine at my first treatment for DRUGS & Alcohol, here in Jackson. He became a friend and mentor. He inspired me into becoming a counselor myself

Not using hasn't been that hard since I OWE out so much $$$$$. Eating good and this writing helps also. Someone wrote to me Facebook spot that she has been reading GOD CALLING for about 8 yrs. and how comforting it is to her. Hope some of you will also read it Must stop now running out of time

January 30 - The Soul At War

"I will never give you a load greater than you can bear."

No evil can befall you, if I am with you. "Ill that He blesses is our good." Every time of being laid aside is a time of retreat into the quiet place with Me. Never fear but in that place you shall find restoration and power and joy and healing.

Plan both of your retreat days now and then - days when you live apart with Me, and arise rested and refreshed - physically, mentally, and spiritually, to carry on the work I have given to you. I will never give you a load greater than you can bear.

Love, Joy, Peace, welcome these. Let no personal feelings, no thoughts of self banish these. Singly, they are miracle-producing in a life, but together, they can command all that is needed on the physical, mental, and spiritual planes.

It is in these wonder-realm attributes all success lies. You have to see your inner lives are all they should be, and then the work is accomplished. Not in rushing and striving on the material plane, but on the battlefield of the Soul are these things won.

"There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God
 is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above
that ye are able." - 1 Corinthians 10:13

January 29 - I Clear the Path

"Never fear, whatever may happen. You are both being led."

"Wait on the Lord." - Psalm 27:14

I am thy shield. Have no fear. You must know that "All is well." I will never let anyone do to you both, other than My Will for you.

I can see the future. I can read men's hearts. I know better than you what you need. Trust me absolutely. You are not at the mercy of Fate, or buffeted about by others. You are being led in a very definite way, and others, who do not serve your purpose, are being moved out of your Path by Me.

Never fear, whatever may happen. You are both being led. Do not try to plan. I have planned. You are the builder, not the Architect.

Go very quietly, very gently. All is for the very best for you.

Trust me for all. Your very extremity will ensure My activity for you. And having your foundation on the Rock - Christ, Faith in Him, and "being rooted and grounded in Him," and having belief in My Divinity as your Corner Stone, it is yours to build, knowing all is well.

Literally, you have to depend on Me for everything - everything. It was out of the depths that David cried unto Me, and I heard his voice. All is well.

"The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord." - Psalm 37:23

January 28 - Low Ambitions

"There is not one want of the soul that I do not supply for the asking, and to you, too, I long to be all."

Fear not. Do not fear to be busy. You are the servant of all. "He that would be the greatest among you, let him be the servant of all."

Service is the word of My disciples. I served indeed, the humblest, the lowliest. I was at their command. My highest powers were at their service.

Be used. Be used by all, by the lowest, the smallest. How best you can serve? Let that be your daily seeking, not how best can you be served.

Look around you. Do the aims and ambitions that man strives for bring peace, or the world's awards bring heart-rest and happiness? No! indeed, man is at war with man. Those whom the world has most rewarded, with name, fame, honour, wealth, are weary and disappointed.

And yet, to the listening ear, above the jangle of the world's discordant cries, there echoes down the 1900 years My message, "Come unto Me, all ye that are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest."

And the weary and disappointed who listen and turn to Me find indeed that rest. Joy of the Weary I am, Music to the Heart I am, Health to the Sick, Wealth to the Poor, Food to the Hungry, Home to the Wanderer, Rapture to the Jaded, Love to the Lonely.

There is not one want of the soul that I do not supply for the asking, and to you too, I long to be all.

"Therefore will the Lord wait, that he may be gracious unto you." - Isaiah 30:18

Day 9

Well boys and girls, went to the VA and asked doc about treatment. He had me see my Case Manager. Together we worked out a plan. Now what will happen is that I'll come to the VA once a wk. until a spot opens for me, she said it might take 3-6 wks.I no longer feel like a drowning man

It felt kinda good letting someone, who can really help, what is going on and reinforce what I already know. Only I can stop using. There is no magic pill or anything else that will keep me from using. I have to my mind made up about quitting.  Going to meetings and being around others who don't use will help and most certainly PRAYING will also., but if I'm not ready to quit then I'll be wasting every ones time.

I don't know where I'll in up but where ever it is it'll be a better place than I'm in now.I believe that GOD as something SPECIAL for me , just don't know what it may be.Everyday CAN BE filled with surprises and joy. I know this because that what it was like before. Not that I want my old non-using  life back. There is no such thing in going back, but I can have a fulfilling life. Maybe my daughter and I can get closer or at least see each other soon. Speaking of her I'm going to call her tonight and let her know whats been going on with me.She knows but to tell her is something I must do because she deserves to hear the truth from me about why I haven't been able to be there for her. 

Everyday won't be as above but that doesn't mean it's a wasted day.So until then.See YA

January 27 - Height of the Storm

It is a part of My method to wait till the storm is at its full violence.

"Lord, to whom shall we go? thou hast the words of eternal life." - John 6:68                                   I am with you both. Go forward unafraid. Health and strength, peace and happiness and joy - they are all My gifts. Yours for the asking. In the spiritual (as in the material) world there is no empty space, and as self and fears and worries depart out of your lives, it follows that the things of the Spirit, that you crave so, rush in to take their places. All things are yours, and ye are Christ's, and Christ is God's. What a wonderful cycle, because ye are God's.

Be not afraid. Fear not. It is to the drowning man the Rescuer comes. To the brave swimmer who can fare well alone He comes not. And no rush of Joy can be like that of a man towards his Rescuer.

It is a part of My method to wait till the storm is at its full violence. So did I with My disciples on the Lake. I could have bidden the first angry wave be calm, the first gust of wind be still, but what a lesson unlearned? What a sense of tender nearness of refuge and safety would have been lost.

Remember this - My disciples thought that in sleep I had forgotten them. Remember how mistaken they were. Gain strength and confidence and joyful dependence and anticipation from that.

Never fear. Joy is yours, and the radiant joy of the rescued shall be yours.

"Shew me thy ways, O Lord; teach me thy paths." - Psalm 25:4