March 14 - God's Touch

Near, all broodingly near, as some tender motherbird anxious over its young, I am here.  I am your Lord, Life of your body and mind and soul - renewer of your youth.

You do not know all that this time of converse with Me will mean to you.  Did not My servant Isaiah say, "They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength.  They shall mount up with wings as eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint."

Persevere in all I tell you to do.  The persistent carrying out of My commands, My desires, will unfailingly bring you, as far as spiritual, mental, and temporal things are concerned, to that place where you would be.

If you look back over My Words to you, you will see that My leading has been very gradual, and that only as you have carried out My wishes, have I been able to give you more clear and definite teaching and guidance.

Man's ecstasy is God's touch on quickened, responsive, spirit-nerves.  Joy - Joy - Joy

Forget not all his benefits ... who satisfieth thy
mouth with good things; so that thy youth is
renewed like the eagle's.  Psalm 103:2,5

March 13 - Spiritualism

Wait before Me, gently breathing in My Spirit.

That Spirit which, if given a free entrance, and not barred out by self, will enable you to do the same works as I did, which being interpreted is, will enable Me to do the same works, and even greater than I did when on earth - through you.

Spiritualism is wrong. No man should ever be a medium for any spirit, other than Mine.

All you should know, all it is well for you to know of My Spirit-Kingdom, I will tell you when and how I see best. The limit is set by your own spiritual development.

Follow My injunctions in all things.

Peace - Peace - Peace.

"This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh." - Galatians 5:16

Day 8

It's getting late and it's been a long day. The longer I stay in treatment the more questions have been put to me and the more I'm learning about self. The Q.Am I sure I want RECOVERY? A.Today I DO. Since I relapsed once before, after 8yrs clean. I can't say that it will not happen again. I don't plan too. My counselor gave me a homework assignment. It has me thinking about just how I was thinking before I relapsed. Not finished with the book, but I can see that I was SETTING myself up for a FALL. I TRUELY don't see it that way. Now I do. Will this help me in the future? Only GOD knows,but with HIS HELP and GRACE I believe I stand a much better chance of NOT USING again, any time soon. That means that if I really want to stay CLEAN HE WILL BE THERE WITH me.Time to say GOOD NIGHT will sign in again Tomorrow. Continue to PRAY with me. LOVE M.

Day 7

Had HOMEWORK over the wknd. The most interesting parts to me were the ones that spoke to SEX and ANGER issues. Both of those areas has and can have the potential for me to RELAPSE. The sexual part because so much of my sex life centered around drinking or drugging off times both, that the two were inseparable.

No form of FANTASIES were OFF limits. That included 2 women at the same time. At this point in my life it's a wonder if I can last with just ONE. HA-HA-HA.One question really upset in my answer. The Q.Are U hoping to continue excessive,promiscuous,or unusual sexual behavior without COCAINE? First of all the VA has done an complete blood work-up of me and I'm DISEASE FREE. Now what do I call unusual?

That isn't unusual it's just MANY men don't and I do.To get back to my A. YES I DO INTEND TO CONTINUE. That isn't a good answer but it is the TRUTH to the best of my intentions.

Now for the ANGER part. I rarely get that way due too the fact that I've learned other ways in which to curb those feelings.There are just a few things that PISS me off.1).People asking the same thing over and over, more than 3 times. 2).My NEED to be PERFECT and when I'm not I get angry at self.3).Anyone attempting to take advantage of me.Well gang, there's no one reading this anyway so why did I say GANG? Just a joke one day someone will stumble upon this site and say DAMN WHAT A SICK PUPPY, again just kidding. It's getting late, I want to shower and than watch the last of the movie THE TAKEN.Good Night LOVE M.

The Revolution Will Not Be Televised

“The revolution will not be televised. The revolution will not be brought to you by Xerox in four parts without commercial interruptions…

"The revolution will not be brought to you by the Schaefer Award Theater and will not star Natalie Wood and Steve McQueen or Bullwinkle as Julia.

"The revolution will not give your mouth sex appeal.

"The revolution will not get rid of the nubs.

"The revolution will not make you look five pounds thinner, because the revolution will not be televised, brother."

March 11 - Seek Beauty

Draw Beauty from every flower and Joy from the song of the birds, and the color of the flowers.

Drink in the beauty of air and color. I am with you. When I wanted to express a beautiful thought, I made a lovely flower. I have told you. Reflect.

When I want to express to man what I am - what my Father is - I strive to make a very beautiful character.

Think of yourselves as My expression of attributes, as a lovely flower is My expression of thought, and you will strive in all, in Spiritual beauty, in Thought - power, in Health, in clothing, to be as fit an expression for Me as you can.

Absorb Beauty. As soon as the beauty of a flower or a tree is impressed upon your soul it leaves an image there which reflects through your actions. Remember that no thought of sin and suffering, of the approaching scorn and Crucifixion, ever prevented My seeing the beauty of the flowers.

Look for beauty and joy in the world around. Look at a flower until its beauty becomes part of your very soul. It will be given back to the world again by you in the form of a smile or a loving word or a kind thought or a prayer.

Listen to a bird. Take the song as a message from My Father. Let it sink into your soul. That too will be given back to the world in ways I have said. Laugh more, laugh often. Love more. I am with you. I am your Lord.

"The heavens declare the glory of God; and
the firmament sheweth his handiwork." - Psalm 19:1

March 10 - Fruit of Joy

You have to hush the heart and bid all your senses be still before you can be attuned to receive Heaven's music.

Your five senses are your means of communication with the material world, the links between your real Spirit-Life and the material manifestations around you, but you must sever all connection with them, when you wish to hold Spirit-communication. They will hinder, not help.

See the good in everybody. Love the good in them. See your unworthiness compared with their worth. Love, laugh, make the world, your little world, happy.

As the ripples caused by a flung stone stir the surface of a whole pond, so your joy-making shall spread in ever-widening circles, beyond all your knowledge, all anticipation. Joy in Me. Such Joy is eternal.

Centuries after, it is still bearing Joy's precious fruit.

"These things have I spoken unto you, that my
joy might remain in you, and that your joy might be full." - John 15:11